(My walk at work.)
It's been a while since I've done a post that isn't focused on photography or food or decorating. I need to get back to the original focus of this blog... to talk about the things that I notice that are beautiful or special or worthwhile to me. I used to blog about things like coffee shops, and trees, and frost on my car... just because I enjoyed them. I need to get back to that. This post will be more in that direction...
The other day I was taking a walk outside on one of my breaks at work. It was a beautiful fall day outside. There was a nice, cool breeze. The sun was out. Leaves were blowing across the sidewalk. I was listening to some good music. I remember tilting my head up to the sky to take in the beauty of the day and just thinking, "This feeling, this person that I am right now, this is who I want to be."
I don't want to be that person who is grumpy at work. Or who complains about how busy she is. Or gets frustrated with her roommates for not putting their dishes away. Or makes a joke at someone else's expense. That's not who I want to be. That's not who I'm created to be.
Have you ever had feelings like this before? I get that feeling, that "this is who I want to be" feeling every so often. Like when I'm walking outside on a fall day. Or when I'm at a concert surrounded by beautiful music produced by incredible musicians. Or when I'm baking something special for someone that I know could really use some encouragement. Or when I'm blogging about beautiful things. Or when I've just finished a project that turned out exactly how I'd envisioned it turning out. These are things that I love. These are feelings and gifts that I've been given. This is the person who I am created to be. I want to be this person.
(I listened to the below song on repeat while writing this post. It's another thing where I think, "This is who I want to be." when listening to it.)
1 comment:
Hello! I've been a follower of your blog for a while now, but I've never commented before. :) I loved your words, and the song you posted! Your post reminded me of that old Switchfoot song, "This is your life- are you who you want to be?"
I remember having those "this is who I want to be" moments as young as eight years old.... I remember being at a friend's house one beautiful summer afternoon in Wisconsin, swinging on the swingset in her backyard, my legs flying high into the air. School was about to start soon. I remember feeling so perfectly happy and content as I was soaring through the wind, and I was determined to be that happy and content forever. When school starts again in the fall, I remember thinking to myself, I'm going to be so nice to everyone; I'm even going to give everyone one of my pencils! (I had a huge pencil collection-- haha. Not sure why I just thought back to that memory.... It's so vivid in my mind though, even now.
Obviously many years have passed since then. Even though I haven't been constantly happy and content like I promised I would be, it's such a comfort to know that God gives us grace for every day, to start anew in becoming the person He wants us to be.
Thank you for writing!
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